Today just sucks

The past 3 months have sucked

I'm ready for college

I hate how I feel. I hate feeling like this over a guy. I shold have known it was to good to be true...cuz I have the worst luck in the world. The funny thing is how many of his friends told me he was a good guy. Stupid me for believeing that I actually found one.

I feel sick...I never knew someone could make me feel like I do. I get myself into things that I shouldnt. I hate myself for this. I didnt even do anything wrong.

I cant feel like this anymore and I know I'll be fine. I'm just sad right now. I fucking hate this...everyday we spent together was great, but I know I can't keep thinking of them. I'm doing everything in my power to thing of anything but him. I need to destract myself and hopefully this sickening feeling will go away.

The funny thing is I wouldnt trade any of the time we spent together for the world...

So I wanna go to winter homecoming....

yea

I've never been so depressed over a guy. My stomach is litterally in knots, and I just wanted to puke everywhere while I was at work today. Even the songs on the radio remind me of him. Fuck you'd think that we were together for like a year or something, but it wasnt even close. And the fact that he wont even talk to me is whats worse. It's gonna take a while for me to get over him.

God I miss that kid.

And I'm also gonna miss Hub. After 9th grade I never saw him at school cuz he left, but I would randomly see him out. Deffenitly one of the funniest people I met.

R.I.P. Hub 12/5/05